Operation Update

We are doing well after last week's drama. Chip is healing quickly and is able to help ME a little bit with the kids. I know I am supposed to be helping HIM but being the primary care giver to three people was about to kill my back (two of the three are sleeping in pac-n-plays).

Emotionally I am miles ahead of where I was yesterday. Yesterday was the first day I had to myself since losing Chloe. I was feeling much emotion. Some of my feelings were sadness over the loss whereas some were regarding other issues. I think I was just feeling forgotten. But, during the afternoon naps I had some good time journaling and studying a parable. God was really sweet to me during that time. And afterward, a dear friend called me from Wales to check on us. It really blessed my heart that she cared.

Today church was incredible. I had a bad attitude at the start but I prayed that God would change my heart...and He did wonders. I was moved to tears/constantly flowing tears as the pastor fully explained Mark 15:15-26 where Christ was scourged and crucified. My heart broke for what he endured for my sins and the sins of the world. I felt loved and remembered, not forgotten. Shortly after church I got a phone call from a girl I am leading. It was just another small blessing from the Lord that He cares for me and that He will meet my needs.